1st Dentist Vist

This afternoon I took you to the dentist. For your 1st ever visit, and to get info in your under bite.  You did so so well, a very well behaved boy. You got your teeth cleaned, and never got scared! Loved all of her tools! Update on under bite: not only is it an under bite but it's also a cross bite too. Right now we wont do anything.  When your 6, we will see an ortho to get it fixed. A painless solution, hopefully just a retainer. 

So so proud of your baby boy! 

Love you to the moon and back - Momma

Jesus and Mimi

Dear Landen,

 

This afternoon when I picked you up from school, you said something that I do not ever want to forget.

 

Just last week we lost Mimi. She went to be with Jesus. When we told you about it, you understood it really well. You understood that she rose up to be with Jesus, and we can't go see her again until Jesus calls us to heaven. That she got a new body in heaven, a healthy body. And will dance the streets of gold. A body that is new, so we had to bury the old body in a tomb. Just like Jesus.

 

I am so grateful for God's perfect will. For coming into my life when He did and giving me 2 years to establish truth into your young life; for building the foundation in which we stand on. Without that, you would be lost right now. Without that, we all would be lost right now.

 

On our drive home, we had to stop by a friends house and deliver a disc. We took a way that we have never traveled before. On that route was a church. When we passed it, you said "I saw Jesus and Mimi!" (Just typing that gives me goose bumps.)

 

It didn't seem abnormal to me to hear that from you, so I asked, "Where did you see them at?"

 

You said that you saw them at that church we had just passed. I then asked you what they were doing and you told me that they were picking flowers.

 

{Right there. Right then, I could see it. The sun shining down on them and my sweet, pure boy seeing his Mimi picking flowers with our Savior.}

 

I elaborated with you and told you how amazing it must be to pick flowers with Jesus! I reaffirmed your vision, because there is not a doubt in my mind about what you saw. How amazing!! To see how God comforts us. He is a God of comfort and peace. We just have to be open to see it. To have child like faith! Thank you Landen!

 

*Also today in school the teachers told me that you were being extra loud. {Kinda normal for you!} But when I asked you why you were loud today, you told me that you were singing loud for Jesus today! - Well then son, I will let that one slide!*

 

I love your heart, soul and your faith. You are my daily challenge. A challenge given to me by God, a challenge that I accept graciously and willingly! All for His glory!

 

I love you so much little man.

 

Thank you for loving me, even on my worst days. And for letting me see your faith shine through your eyes.

 

I love you to the stars and back!

- Mommy

 

He's coming back!

Dear Landen,

I want to document this wonderful moment/memory before we go to the zoo with your class today.

While getting dressed, you said, "Jesus rose up and one day he is coming back."

Wow.

You said that unprovoked, and it warms my heart. That, my son, is what we long for!!

I told you that you were absolutely right! One day he will come back and it will be a glorious day! On that day we will rise up and be in heaven with Jesus and God (and you did a little happy dance, and I joined you!)

You are so precious to me.

May I always remember the little-big moments! Moments like these is why God made me your mom, sweet boy.

Mommy love you to the moon and back!
-Mommy


Now lets go to the zoo (weather permitting)!!

About You!

Dear Landen,

Last night I asked you a few questions, just  to see you speak about what intrigues you at age 3!  Before I asked the questions, I had thought that I already knew the answers and I was mostly right! I just wanted to hear how you answer them.

 

Question 1: What is your favorite food? Macaroni and cheese! Good choice my son! It sure is delicious. And when we eat it for dinner, dad and I know that you must only get a little bit at first. It is always the first to be scarfed up. You always ask for more, but are always told to eat the rest of your food (meat and vegetables) first! You do, just so you can have more mac-n-cheese! I admire your consistency!

 

Question 2: What is your favorite color? Pink! (No surpise to me there. Maybe a surprise to others - maybe even dad!!) Out of all the colors, you know pink! You may get the others wrong when asked "what color is that?" but you know what pink is! I dont mind that you like pink. It is most likely going to change, but for now, your favorite color is pink! I like pink too!

 

Question 3: Who is your favorite person? Mom! Well, this one just made my heart so happy!! And it kinda surprised me. I thought you may have said one of your friends at school. Cooper is usually on top of your list! I am honored to be your favorite person. Knowing that even in the days that I disipline you, I still have that special place in your sweet heart. Momma will always have your best interest in mind and in my actions.

 

Question 4: Where is your favorite place to be? Home! (Just like his momma!!)  Home is a sacred place. You can always come home! Home is where the heart is, home is where your family is, home is where we make it.  

 

There is so much that I want to tell you, teach you, and show you. Together on the journey of life, one day at a time my son.

 

You are such an intriguing little boy. Growing so fast that I can't keep up with all the sweet, funny things that you say or do.

 

When I think of you, here are just a few things that come to my mind...

 

I love that your heart is open to trying anything.

 

I love the way that you dance around the house in your little camo pajama pants.

 

I love hearing you pray (lately for Jonah in the fish's belly).

 

I love the way you get scared and come running for me.

 

I love that you will kiss me on every spot on my face, labeling each one. (To me, each on is more special as the last.)

 

I love the way you say "yeah, that'd be fun!", when asking me to let you do something.

 

Above all, I love the way you love me. Endlessly.

 

I will be the greatest fan of your life.

 

Love you to the moon and back little man,

- Mom

 

 

Our Journey

Dear Landen,

 

We have been through it all. Thick and thin. Good and bad. The pretty and the ugly.

 

God has provided for our family in many ways to allow me to stay at home with you. Today marks the 1 year anniversary of our journey!  My heart is so full of thankfulness.

 

When I decided to take the 'leap of faith' to stay home and quit my job, I knew that there would be bumps in the road but I also knew that there would be many glorious days spent with you.

 

Days spent teaching you new things, teaching you God's word and what he represents, days spent learning about myself through you. Learning how to be a better wife and mom.

 

Right now, I choose not to look to far ahead into our future. I want to stay right where we are, in the present.

 

With you a wild, smart, funny, energetic 3 year old.

 

And me, your biggest fan.

 

On a journey together, one day at a time.

 

Each day leaning on the Lord for when we run out, he picks up and we keep going.

 

You keep me on my toes, and show me more of myself than I thought was there. But I wouldn't trade the last year for anything. The wises parenting choice I have made.

 

I love you so much sweet boy.

 

- Mom

 

 

 

First Stitches.

Dear Landen,

Today you broke the clean streak of not going to the hospital! While it was a minor injury, it is your first and therefore shall be documented!

As usual, on Sunday mornings we went to church. We went to our nursery meeting at 8:15, I was a little late so it was more like 8:20 today. And just like every other Sunday, you play with your friends until its time to go to your class.

But just 10 minutes later, I hear you scream my name and cry. When I see you, there is blood running down your face and a hole in your head, saying you hit your head on a chair. You were in panic mode so I knew I had to stay calm.

Once I got to your level and talked to you, you calmed down. Mrs. Haley gave us a rag, we were able to see how bad it was. Sure enough, you had punctured your forehead. Everyone was very helpful and we all agreed that it would need stitches.

When I told you that we had to leave church, you were very upset (which I knew you would be.) You love church and look forward to it each week.

We drove home and got dad and then headed straight to Taylor Medical Clinic.

Luckily they treat trams differently than illnesses such as the flu. (I was afraid that us sitting in the waiting room, we would catch something.) They got us to a room fairly quickly.

The nurses were very sweet to you and tried to make you feel as comfortable as possible.

Before it was time for the doctor, the nurse cleaned the wound. You handled that well but wanted to leave then.

The worst part was yet to come sweet boy.

The doctor had to numb your head in order to stitch it up. Which meant giving you a shot right in the area that was already in pain (with a big needle too!). It was horrific for me to watch. You were screaming and kicking to get up and for mommy to save you.

It broke my heart. I wanted to comfort you so deeply but knew that you needed the stitches and I couldn't hug you just yet.

The doctor got the first stitch in and you were doing.... ok. The second stitch was not going to happen in your book. You fought and fought. Screamed and screamed.

I had to step way from your head because my heart was hurting an I didn't want you to see momma cry. Everything was fine and I needed to be strong for you because you didn't know that it was going to be ok and my tears may make you think otherwise. You were in so much pain and I've never had to experience these feelings or circumstances before.

The doctored decided to only use one stitch and put medical glue on top if it. When the nurse left to get the glue, you jumped into my arms and wouldn't let go. I had to lay you back down for the glue, which you were ok with but at this point you were hyperventilating.

Once they said you were done, you went with daddy out side, never to enter again. You asked him where I was and he said I was paying and asked if you wanted to go see. You said "no, we will wait outside." On the way home daddy rode in the back seat with you. Seeing you two like that melts my heart. Landen, daddy loves you so much and would do anything for you. (Even squeeze into my backseat!) He promised you ice cream when you were done, and we had to make 3 stops before we got it, but we got it for you!

Being a mother, that may be my first time to feel those emotions but it won't be the last.

You were scared and sad at nap time and asked if I would sleep with you. You said you didn't want me to leave you. Of course I said I would and it was wonderful! Me being with you calmed you and you finally rested. That makes this momma very happy. It was the best nap ever!

Landen Kyne, all the things I do, I do them for you. I love you more than anything this world can offer me.

May God give you comfort and calm your spirit. May he allow you to slow down long enough to heal. May he give you courage not to be afraid of anything that happened today. May God give me and your dad the patience needed and wisdom to point you in the right direction.

 

 

From left to right: Waiting at Taylor Medical; After the nurse cleaned it; and at home with yoiur 1 stitch and glue

Us napping together. A precious moment for me.

Our "bad bandage boy!"

Dad send kisses because he had to leave to go to San Antonio for work a hour after we got home. He was very sad.

We love you so much Landen. I pray that this doesnt make you afraid of anything that went on today or of living your beautiful life. Be bold and brave son, with a side of cautiousness!

 

Love you to the moon and back,

-Momma

In My Heart.

Dear Landen,

This evening after dinner I asked you a few questions about Jesus. (These first two are regular questions for you.)

#1. Who loves you the most? You answered correctly with Jesus.

#2. Who do you love the most? You answered correctly with Jesus.

The next question is one I haven't asked you in a while.

#3. Where is Jesus? You answered with "in my heart!"!

My heart melted. Before you answered I secretly hoped you would say that.

How amazing it is it me, as your mommy to hear that you have Jesus in your heart! That is what I strive for everyday.

Some days I fail more than others and some says i do better than others. But I also have Jesus in my heart and he helps me along the way! He forgives us and his love never fails.

You are an amazing little man, Landen.

I love you to the moon and back,
-Mommy